Originally posted by
Cearna
In my humble opinion (is this ego or not?) This is what I feel is simply a term some people use to explain certain kinds of behaviour, but like everything else in life it is not always what it seems - why because we are complex beings and what to one person is one thing, to another it is something entirely different. People wrote books about all sorts of terms such as these and made lots of money, and their terms became in use in the general public, but that doesn't mean they are what the term says it is.
for example, in an office where all are considered equal, they are on the same wages, the same kind of contract, do the same work (more or less), however, one of these may think they are more equal than all the rest, for any number of reasons, most often they consider they do a better job than any one else. This would be touted usually as that person having an ego, but it would not be considered a spiritual ego to all intent because their seems to be no spirituality connected to this. However, one person may resent the feeling that is put across by this person to be considered having an ego. This second person is some one who feels the intent of another and is affected emotionally by this. This to me then becomes a spiritual issue, for, the person who considers themselves more than some one else, enough to have it felt by another person is projecting something intending to make life emptier to some one else. This becomes part of rule one for all who live in open-ness, for we should do nothing to harm some one else. This is not then, ego, it is something some one feels about themselves, which might just be true, except, their intent to harm was not there.
So, the complexity begins, if you wish to see it in spiritual terms.
I can see a few things here that become spiritual Soul work for some of us to have needed at some time to work on.
I talk most about the things that happen to myself that I had to work on a great deal, and one in particular comes in front of me over again. This is the use of the word "I" - it is so often associated with ego and to me is a complete misnomer, for astrologically I am Aries - Sun, moon, ascendant, mercury, Saturn and part of fortune in Aries, now what is Aries known for - "I Am" so for my explanation to any person to whom I speak, it will be littered with I, or more particularly I AM. Does that make me egotistical, or simply living in the way I was meant to see things this time round. However, like so many of you, I woke up, I began exploring, not only life itself but myself. Unlike so many others, as soon as I began to do so I had a God come to help me go through these changes. That God, became my Higher Self, and let me go helter skelter into find myself and more importantly to me what talents I had that I never knew existed. If you had known the most boring, slow, inward me, you would not be so surprised at the person I became when I began to find this whole exciting new world. Those who did not know that old me had nothing to go by when this excited new me emerged to the shock of myself. when I tried to explain some of these new things I'd found to some one else who had woken up years before me and was on the trail of Tibetan Buddhism, she suddenly said "There you go, putting me down again" which in its own way is the ego thing. But ..... I was only excited and saying what had happened, I was not at any time in my mind telling I was better than her, had no thought of it whatsoever....... she thought I was, so to her it was real - so she had a problem about some one putting her down compared to themselves, that is a spiritual issue she was being greeted with obviously time and again. Was I supposed to see my ego in this and do something about it, or was I having been confronted with it now supposed to look at it myself. I know it hurt me, and, since it hurt me, that hurt was mine, not hers. So Aianawa this is one of those spiritual ego things that we will all come across at some time, and so what did my God tell me to use as a general guide in this situation:
First of all, see if any of it is a problem that I needed to deal with, I certainly needed to see how hurt I become when some one else tells me I have done wrong (mainly because I had many occasions in my childhood when I was strapped for doing wrong, and I had no idea what I had done) so that was mine to deal with. Did I intend to do harm? No - so I did not have to deal with this, but had I meant to then it was my problem and he would certainly make me deal with it, So it was a problem of the other persons and I did not have to deal with her problem, but she most certainly did, and it would only be right to try to help her come to terms with it in this way, if she would allow it. did I feel pride or better than some one else no, I was just extremely excited and happy, so it was not ego, but I did have to learn how others can feel put down and very hurt, just as I felt hurt when she in fact began putting me down, by blaming me for doing this to her.
So no ego ever existed in society, till claws came out and some decided that to show just who the mightiest was by simply ripping some one to shreds emotionally. This is spiritual torment, which became known as evil intent to harm, and that is what this story on life is about - to learn to be in Life, but let all be themselves, without assuming to know what the other persons motives are or were. We heal only by understanding tokens of everyone's sordid head space - if we in fact stood all outside the head space, we find no close ties to headspace - it is all emotional reaction , to a given response, which gives words to use to explain the intent, but worn't explain "Please don't do this to me again, it hurts too much".
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